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Post by Ri on Jan 15, 2009 16:08:46 GMT -5
Ri smiled her dark blue eyes locking with Heavens "you" she then leaned in and kissed the girl gently having never kissed anyone before made her kinda nervous but she wouldn't give up. Let her hand cup Heaven's cheek affectionately she just kissed the girl on the lips she dared not to even do a deeper kiss for fear of getting her ass handed to her.
She even let her other hand hold Heaven's hand gently in a trusting grip to tell her she meant to harm to the girl. All she wanted was to love the girl and nothing more.
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Post by Heaven on Jan 15, 2009 17:15:29 GMT -5
Amazing, she thought...not only at the fact she seemed to be leaving herself wide open to these answers she got but also that there was coherent thought within her mind to realise it beyond the jolt of feeling that was as breathtaking as being thrown into cold water. Only it wasn’t cold, it was warm and teased every nerve ending enough for her to wish for more and perhaps after that want more still. Her legs had effectively turned lame and it was a surprise they still held her up.
This was dangerous ground for her, she knew it, her mind whispered its warning over the sound of her heartbeat like something that ought never to be mentioned. With just one action she could effectively ruin what she’d spent so long building. Betrayal was not something she wished to experience for a second time. Dependence and obligation even less so; to shoulder the burden of caring about what happened to anyone else but herself was to make herself vulnerable.
The word itself didn’t sit well with her nor that it could be so easily accomplished. Where she sat there expecting direct attacks there was perhaps a more subtle one she had overlooked completely. Her gaze flashed a dangerous light probably an early indication of her rising anger if the semblance of a growl beneath her breath wasn’t indication enough as she pulled her hands free. There was however no room for mistaking it as she sent her flying backwards without even touching her, not having to say a word. Some spells just didn’t require words just a desire. Her desire was to have a lot more space between them for her peace of mind and to think more coherantly.
Still it wasn’t as violent as it could have been merely throwing her a handful of inches backwards and not knocking her off her feet. “Who sent you?” she asked voice completely cold as she realised she’d actually held back. Was the damage already that deep that she couldn’t bring herself to hurt her completely?
She glared her distrust and annoyance her whole being a harried mass of turmoil. "Isn't something like this low." questioned the pot that currently called the kettle black. She couldn't think of anyone on her list right now who would be willing to sink as low as she.
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Post by Ri on Jan 15, 2009 17:29:02 GMT -5
RI felt the jerk in power and knew she pissed the girl off slamming into the wall behind her she slumped to the ground looking up at Heaven she sighed moving to get to her feet she wiped the small trail of blood from her lips she had bit her lip when she had hit the wall.
Letting her blue eyes turn to Heaven she smiled sadly "no one sent me Heaven no one i just kinda stumbled upon you on my own first in the forest second in the town square today" she leaned back against the wall.
"Who the heck would i know anyway that could send me after you, i told you i travel alone, i live alone, no body wants to be around me" her eyes turned a little red as the vampire came out a little but she pushed it back and they went back to their normal dark blue.
She pushed off from the wall "I am sorry to have offend you i just was really ecited i had told you what i was and you didn't care i thought i had a chance guess i was wrong about that"she let her hand touch Heaven's cheek softly before she began to limp away.
It would be a few hours before she could walk with out the limp, she could feel her vampire said getting hungry but she wouldn't abide by the damn thing she was raised better if even for a short time. Her parents never ate or drank human blood or humans so she wouldn't either. It was the only thing they could teacher her before they died.
Moving to sit on a bolder outside of the town square and a few feet away from the alley she had taken Heaven into she reached into her shirt pocket and pulled out a pocky stick and began to much on it. It was times like this she whished she would have taken up her fathers hobby for cigs.
She looked over to where Heaven still stood wondering what the girl would do now that Ri wasn't with her or going to follow her. Ri thinks she has already done enough to the girl so she just sits and watches.
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Post by Heaven on Jan 15, 2009 18:40:26 GMT -5
To say she was feeling a lot stupid and a lot guilty was an understatement to say the least. Try as she would to ignore it it was definitely there. It was that cringing feeling she felt now shaming her greatly even as she berated herself. She had to remember that what was little for her was big for someone else. She also had to realise that even if she couldn’t trust the girl enough there was a part of her that did not like that look she’d given her nor the fact that she now limped as a result of her handiwork.
If nothing else she ought to apologise to at least let herself sleep tonight and maybe, once she’d done that, this strange part of her could finally shut up and go away. Preferably somewhere where she never had to hear from it again. She didn't like it one little bit. Being her usual stubborn self however it took her a long time to muster up the ability to actually do it choosing to glare in the direction Ri had taken instead as if to sufficiently convince herself that she was being forced to do this. You hurt her...more than physically . The thought was brief but admonishing nonetheless. Why it should even matter...But if only for a few minutes she should be willing to make amends even on a polite level. After all she meant no real harm to her and the limp 'was' her fault.
Then there was that look still poignant even from afar. By the gods this one was going to ruin her. She rolled her eyes and for the second time that day went after Ri. This was becoming a habit and after this time she stubbornly promised herself that she would not do it again. She walked towards her slowly, unhurried, smarting with shame and defiance all at the same time. She hesitated only for a fraction of a second as she before she continued towering over her momentarily before reaching forward to tilt her chin up checking on the damage to her lip. It wasn’t too serious she thought silently and of her own accord her lips brushed across the cut as she whispered the words to her spell so lightly it was like a fleeting dream, and as a brief soft glow surrounded Ri she smiled a very little smile as if it were scarce on the ground “Be well Ri”.
Withdrawing she stood, that should be enough to take care of the limp too. Pushing her hair behind her ear she muttered...as it was hard to admit to and pained her to say “I apologise.” Then after a few seconds she queried “Are you okay now?” her question directed at her earlier limp choosing to ignore the unsettled rhythm of her heartbeat.
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Post by Ri on Jan 15, 2009 18:58:13 GMT -5
Ri looked at Heaven shivering when those lips touched hers and healed them. She could almost feel her fangs itch at the thought of making the girl hers. She watched as she then healed her limp leg.
Smiling she said "Yes i am fine, i guess i mean i didn't get what i wanted out of this whole mess but at least your not hitting me or yelling at me" she leaned back a little so she could look at the sky it would be easier to keep her emotions in check if she didn't have to look into those silvery eyes.
"I guess you have had enough of my company, i guess this is where you tell me not to follow you no more and i say alright and leave you be right" she didn't dare look away from the sky watching as the sun sky slowly changed into a starry night sky. Ri's eyes light up a little from the moon light making the dark blue seem like a lighter shade of blue.
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Post by Heaven on Jan 16, 2009 5:54:03 GMT -5
She frowned a little at those words. Okay, perhaps she deserved that, she would take it quietly at least that was what she should ideally do…in the interest of a diplomatic parting. Surely she could clamp back a retort long enough to not make a complete hash of her attempt at a restful night when it came.
Obviously not…”You make me sound like an Ogre.” She snapped ungraciously. What, in the name of everything holy, was it about this girl that set her on her head with seemingly little effort? “I would not-“ and she stopped realising she couldn’t very well say that judging from her earlier actions. She couldn’t say either that she wasn’t usually so tumultuous either because it seemed with her around it merely aggravated a part of her she hadn’t realised to be so…prickly, for want of a better word still. Emotional might be better but she wanted no association with the word. To top it off she didn’t like surprises or un-factored complications to her routine and that was precisely what Ri was.
She simply fell silent with a small sigh focusing instead on an answer to the second problem. Perdita would through a fit at company no matter how short. More so if she found out Heaven herself had agreed to it. More importantly there was the issue of Ri’s ability to push at her limits…doubly confusing was the fact that she didn’t seem to mind enough to sever all contact and tell her where to get off.
“Do what you feel is best at your own risk.” And that was as good an invitation as Heaven was going to give. She supposed a little more time in her company wouldn’t scar her irreparably. She’d no doubt get bored soon and move on soon enough. She ran her tongue over the side her lip to get rid of the tingle that was ‘not’ an after effect of the spell. Truth be told, the touch of lips had been as much retaliation as it was an excuse. Then with a small incline of her head she began walking again before Ri could spot the smugly devious smile she couldn't help.
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Post by Ri on Jan 16, 2009 13:56:42 GMT -5
Ri keep her eyes on the sky asking "why are you so cold" she let her eyes drop to the girl walking away from her stopping her with the words.
"Was it something in the past that has made you this way or was it someone" she stood up her anger getting the better of her. Eyes turning an amber color as her werewolf side made itself known.
"Your just so cold you want let anyone in not even if they could love you." she walked over to Heaven standing in front of her "yet if it was me i would jump at the chance i would let that person in and try my hardest to keep them with me"
She felt her heart racing in her chest "why won't you give this, us a chance" she felt her gums itching from the fangs in her mouth wanting her to mark the girl as hers but held back out of love for the girl she wouldn't do something stupid.
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Post by Heaven on Jan 16, 2009 16:03:00 GMT -5
She stopped because she had to. It didn’t feel like a question as much as an accusation. Her smile died brows drawing together but she didn’t turn. She had the notion that if she did perhaps there would be more than just anger on her face. Once she was sure any trace of hurt was gone then and only then did she turn upon the girl’s tirade just as she decided to walk up to her but by then any anger she had seemed to have fizzled out into indifference. What, after all, was the point? It was just another thing she couldn’t deny. That she couldn’t be anything else even now was sad but not something she dwelled on.
“Something, someone, whatever fits the purpose. It makes no difference.” She said with a small dismissive wave not wishing to tarry on the subject. It wasn’t her thing to go into the why, where and how’s, what was past was past and she’d become very good at working by herself, relying on herself. All in all it had worked out rather well. There wasn’t any way she could simply start to incorporate someone else so easily. Still she smarted more than a little at her words. Her brow rose derisively “If I am so cold why persist when you obviously know I am unable to be like you.”
She stared at Ri for awhile as if trying to think what more she could say. Why was it she was even still here having this conversation. She was hardly spontaneous with her heart, she didn’t like partnerships, she couldn’t trust anyone completely and she liked her personal space. On the other hand Ri was everything opposite and more with eyes that seemed to change accordingly. She yearned for companionship and Heaven only wanted solitude. They couldn’t have made a more mismatched pair.
“What is it you wish me to say to you?”
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Post by Ri on Jan 16, 2009 16:34:09 GMT -5
Ri locked eyes with Heaven and said "i wish for you to say that you will give us a chance, give me a chance and that those kisses made you feel something to other then anger" she walked closer "that they made your heart race in a new way that you have never felt before that just being around me makes you feel happy, just like being around you makes me feel happy" she got closer and grabbed Heavens hand putting on her face as she let go "i want you know that even when you hurt me i still can't get enough of you i get shivers from your kisses and my heart goes so fast it feels like it will burst out of my chest."
She leaned into the girls hand "i want you to know why even when you try to kill me, push me away or whatever you through at me i will always come back and be there for you".
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Post by Heaven on Jan 16, 2009 18:07:53 GMT -5
“Well...” She started mouth a little dry looking rather uncomfortable in her own skin “...t-that’s an awful lot to say in one breath.”
It was one thing to think these things, she could hardly deny them. Saying them however, admitting to them...completely different. Admitting it to someone else was even more so. She was asking a lot for someone she’d only just met. The same one that had made her feel like she’d stepped of a building with a simple kiss and, she thought with a tinge of annoyance, took much liberty in touching her despite her disaffection for it. Or at least that ‘had’ been the case. Any minute now she thought belatedly, she would remove her hand from her cheek because it wasn’t ‘that’ soft at all. It hardly made her want to keep it there longer because it wasn’t warm at all and was rather a nuisance really.
Remaining completely unaffected by her words was a challenge she just couldn’t live up to. There was just that earnestly forward way she delivered words that would have made Heaven blush to even think of them. So perhaps she could be forgiven that.
“Words are nothing more than an empty promise.” She found herself saying finally, feeling as if she heard herself from far away and she was horrified at the vulnerability it suggested.
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Post by Ri on Jan 16, 2009 19:20:49 GMT -5
Ri smiled sadly at the words and said "You don't believe that" she keep her eyes locked with Heaven's "You know you don't it may hurt to say it but deep down you know you don't believe it".
Ri took a breath and exhaled her heart still going a mile per second "just like you know deep down i would never hurt you or do anything too you that you didn't want, after all your stronger then me so what could do to you break your heart, how you haven't even gave to me yet plus even if ya did i wouldn't do it and you would have my heart as well"
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Post by Heaven on Jan 16, 2009 23:06:08 GMT -5
Heaven wanted to say it 'was' what she believed, a childish defiance that railed at being pushed up against a rock and a hard place. How dare anyone profess to realise what she didn't. After all she knew herself and she thus what she said should go and far be it for her own self to feel anything other than what she told it to. If she had a table she was sure she would be jabbing her finger against it to punctuate each word.
But then she realised that Ri did have a point and the only thing that showed she thought as much was the small lift of her brow, the slight tilt to her head and the slight contemplative droop of the corner of her mouth. Present only for a second. However it was something she didn't even realise she had done it.
She was stronger, unlike the last time she was a lot stronger, and a lot less in need of help...she could call the shots. Now that appealed more to her distrustful nature; being in control and calling the shots. She'd spent so long working towards being stronger, less dependent and self sufficient that she had at some point forgotten to stop, look back and take stock of where she was now. It was so far away from what she used to be even if it was not yet where she wanted to be.
She took back her hand as nonchalantly as she could unable to say anything and ignoring the feeling of loss. No argument, no reply, no nothing. She just stood there with a small smile. Ri was persistent to say the least. Any other time she would have admired her tenacity.
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Post by Ri on Jan 17, 2009 2:30:01 GMT -5
Ri smiled and said "thats a beautiful smile and i would love to be the one to put it on that face more often" she wanted to reach out and touch Heaven but settled for grasping her own tail. "Your beautiful even with out the smile but i still like the smile Heaven"
She moved to give them girl some space "So Heaven, would you take this lazy person as you girlfriend, i admit i am stupid sometimes but i will always love you"
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Post by Heaven on Jan 17, 2009 6:23:24 GMT -5
She scoffed at the same time as her smile grew a little unable to keep it from doing so as she gave something akin to rolling her eyes. “You do spout a lot of rubbish sometimes.” She muttered hardly willing to admit her smile came from both embarrassment and a small amount of warmth. Getting rid of it wasn’t as easy as she would have liked. Was she really that easy with flattery? She hadn’t thought she was. Her cheeks so warm it was a miracle they didn’t steam. She mentally gave herself a shake quietly thankful when Ri moved back.
It might have been a silly notion but everything righted itself comfortingly with her space back. She could think more lucidly, instinct didn’t dictate that she remove the foreign body as soon as possible, and something new she’d found...her heart beat wasn’t so erratic and her mind so treacherous. She didn’t like that word ‘always’ it rather indicated forever and as she knew well enough and could never be convinced otherwise, nothing lasted forever. A while yes, but not forever.
“I might try to stand your company a while longer.” She said quietly resisting the urge to add ‘and on your head be it’ stubbornly needing to have the last say on a subject but she held it back. If nothing else she could give that one little thing and spoil it. She sincerely hoped that would be enough for her because that was all she could give.
A chance.
For once she would decide to ignore all the warning bells that currently screamed at her or the irrational reaction she felt at having someone else invade her routine. Whatever happened afterwards happened. If it was a mistake to have done it she would deal with it later and she’d be better at it than before. “Please do not push for more.”
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Post by Ri on Jan 17, 2009 12:36:33 GMT -5
Ri smiled "i can live with that" she moved to stand beside Heaven before bringing her into a quick hug gently holding her before letting go. After all Ri could only take so much beatings per day, so she didn't want to go flying into a wall if Heaven got mad.
After pulling back she held Heaven's hand and felt herself blush sure she was acting all stupid and like a kid but hey she liked the feeling of it so who cared how she looked. But she still wanted one more thing it might get her smacked into a wall but it would be worth it. Leaning in she placed a chaste kiss on Heaven's lips before smiling and saying "Now what, we have already ate and its getting late dow you wanna go some where else now Hevean"
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